By Mashaka Williams
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| Coming out of the slump |
In planning my 40th birthday celebration and
looking for pictures of myself, I realized that there was a period of time that
I did not take any pictures of myself. And I thought to myself if it is just me
or are there other women out there that did not like how they looked and
refused to take pictures.
I think that it is sad to know that the reason I did not
take any pictures was because I felt chubby and did not want my old school
mates to see me looking a little plumper than they probably remembered me. But
the more I thought about it the more I had to be honest. I did not want to
think about people saying that about me because I have done it.
Society is as such that we look at pictures of the people we
knew and comment on them. We would say both good and bad. It is not always done
in a malicious way, but it was done. And it is because of my own self I hid the
reality of how I felt about myself.
The funny thing is now when I look pictures of people who
gained weight I look at the picture to observe if they are happy. Rather than
if they are skinny, fat, or the same. I think we need to really enjoy ourselves
at each stage. So I am upset that I don’t have those chubby pictures of myself
because I missed out on some photo opportunities with my kids.
So if you are doing what I did, don’t feel bad you’re not
alone. However I do encourage you do take those pics and be happy. At the end
of the day we only have one life and there are greater struggles in life than
being a little fatter (there I said it) than we want to be.
Have a great day,
Shak
